You say what I knew I could not.

Now I’m left here to think,

And to ponder, wonder and choose….

Not really sure what to do when I should.

How can I discern between knowing and using?

Possibilities are endless, but possibilities aren’t free

I’m scared out of my mind about what that potentially could mean.

Not sure where to go but I know I can’t just go back.

I’ve risked it all then taken it back, and caught an unimaginable glimpse of glory.

But is this really what I want?

Is this really the path I should travel?

What about Him?

Is he ever coming back to claim his last year’s prize?

He put me on hold and then I got impatient and inquisitive.

Curiosity certainly killed more than a cat.

(Which is a miracle that I’m still alive. )

Contemplating, hoping, wishing, and probing…

Still I’m impatient and unsure.

This isn’t fair to You,

But I did warn You…..

I think I would still choose Him.

And that’s not the right place that I should be.

Just give me some time to sort it all out.

Patience and love is all I require.

It is Your conditions and terms this time around….

I owe it to myself and to You to try.

This will all get mended and resolved.