Do you ever feel like your heart is just so big with everything it once held that it is just going to explode with pain, joy and exhaustion?

Particles and pieces of all those parts of you that you’ve acquired these last twenty-two years would just be scattered everywhere in places they would never be discovered again.

They would never send a rescue team to clean up my embarrassing mess.

How do you get away from that?

How do you make those experiences and old feelings just evaporate to hide the confusion?

And what if you think you want something until you have it then you miss all those experiences and those forbidden friendships you used to be allowed to have.

Karma is an ugly thing.